running away

running away from troubles is actually not a good thing. sometimes i choose to run, sometimes i choose to handle it. well for this subject, i have laboratory experiment every 2 weeks for it. everytime group meeting, there must be a member that always ask:" can we go now?". its like im giving them detention and not letting them off from the meeting. well FYI my DEAR member, can you not ask that question to me??? you are doing that again to me today and you are so annoying. why on other unit's group meeting you care so much that you choose to abandon the meeting that we are supposed to have when we are in the same group??? most importantly, you have no right to excuse yourself from the meeting. you know why???

1. you didnt even contribute to the group during the meeting
2. im not the team leader all the time, why did you always asked me if u can leave early or not??
3. you are so annoying that i labelled you as the "ugly flower vase"in the group
4. you are the burden of the team

everytime experiment, you always ask me what are you suppose to do. when i give you a simple task in the experiment, you cant even complete it at all. i feel like scolding you in the public. thank goodness im not that evil. at least just attend the meeting and freakin shut up and STOP asking me if you can leave early. IM NOT RUNNING AWAY FROM THIS. I WILL HANDLE THIS PROBLEM AND TEACH YOU A LESSON.

certain things i do run away la. like if i dont feel like talking to that person, i will run away and pretend i did not see that person. i try my best not to talk that much this week because i feel like soloing again. muahahaha. btw, im so sorry to certain people because i acted as if you didnt exist at all. i just dont feel like talking or looking at you. so sorry bout that. maybe you make me disappointed or something like that. that is how i run away from something that i am not comfortable with, by not looking or talking and pretend like you did not exist. soooooorry.

anyways, im going back to meow meow city this friday. but not staying there. i will be spending my free week in a small and peaceful town (kinda boring but hey, thats where i live). have a nice day after reading this post!

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damm im just so pissed again today! i feel like running away. but to where?? i need to escape sometimes, coz its too much and annoying for me. sighs. some people just cant let their mouth shut even for a while, but i dont really care how people talk as if they are genius. cant they just shut up for a day??? and i have to face it every single day??? u might be wondering what im talking about.

this morning i think some people in the class noticed why im so quite when usually im always the noisy kid in the class. well, since i wasnt even had the chance to speak and voice up my opinion, i might as well just shut up and let the rests of the members do the talking. im so pissed that i accidentally just left the class right after the lecturer dismissed us. to some of the classmates, im so sorry if i showed u the sour face right before i left the class. right now im still at my boiling point, just that i try my best to lower it down.

Again, if you are reading this post and i was talking bout you, im not sorry for it. i know its my fault that im pissed and not easily forgive you, but overall, its your fault for not noticing your own fault at the first place.

i guess things has just changed these days. life in university is not that simple. we just cant avoid some conflicts that happened. the best solution for me is to run away before i make the conflict even worse, coz im not gonna apologise for some problems that i did not create.

well im not that type of forgiving person. my hobby is not to forgive people easily. u just have to earn it for me if u are really sorry for it. if u dont feel like its your fault at all, then dont bother looking for me anymore. i dont mind too. im just so pissed that i can express anything that i want. i dont really care if i have to do work without certain people. cos starting next sem, i will rarely be able to see those annoying people anyway. like what my friends said, being "solo king" is not bad at all. if you happened to read this and you feel like its you, then it must be you. hahaha. WHATEVER

1ST DAY OF THE PREDICTED WORST WEEK

so today (monday) is quite ok for me. i still can handle it. i hope the experiment im doing on tuesday will be fine and im not stressed when im conducting it. i have planned my schedule for the week but omg someone ruined a part of it. im so pissed but i was able to control myself and make some solutions to the "damaged" the person had done. i guess im just like and innocent person suddenly get "hit" by something huge that i was not sure i'll be able to handle or not. but im not gonna sigh all day long like one of my friends, im gonna face it and if i finally i cant deal it, im gonna explode in front of those person who pissed me off. i can predict that this week is the most chaotic one, so i have preparation of being very moody and pesimistic. but still, im hoping for the best for me. to the person that just ruined my day today, beware. im not gonna let you destroy my plannning. im gonna fight back by completing my plan perfectly no matter what you do. btw, something great did happen today. one of my wish had come true. hahaha. i guess if you're really hoping for something to happen, eventually it will happen. so im gonna keep wishing and hoping! ganbate >.<

FREAKIN..._ _ _ _!

The first words im gonna say today is ->MY GOODNESS!!! quit it la. why so unprofessional??? if u r reading this, u know how i feel. I feel so frustrated that no one in my group really does care about the group (maybe they do, but i cant feel it). everyone is like ~~~~~~~! why am i the only one frustrated doing that freakin thing?? wth man i must release everything here. my advice is be proffesional and get the job done as soon as possible. Next time im going to finish the whole thing and by the time u ask me what to do, i will say "i have completed everything!" Next week is going to be chaotic like u don even have time to relax and i will make sure im in my full 100% mode. Im not gonna give up this time even if it takes me alone to finish all the group job. But i must warn ya, i might be isolating myself next week. Last but not least, do your part people!!!! do your part and just shut up. dont push everything to me.

I THINK...

After given a long time to think, i have decided that im a mean person. yay to me!! Good luck to those that i dont like, if u can feel the hatred aura from me, congratulations. Dont worry, i wont do anything to you, cos now im in an OK mood. Wait till my mood went bad, then you guys shall not come near me. (>.<) hahaha... seriously, i wont do anything at all if i dont like certain ppls. I would just punish you in my mind. So no worries needed. Have a nice day! =P

AM I HORRIBLE?

Another day, another thoughts. this has never came to my mind, then again it suddenly appeared out of nowhere in my brain. I think im a terrible and horrible person, i dunno why... wargh.... i feel like i need to shout but no appropriate place for it (hehehe). i think im horrible because there's alot of ppl that i dont really like to see in the campus. Its not their fault, its just me i guess. Like today in Moral lecture, our group was suppose to wear BLACK shirt and do a pledge in front of the audience. Then suddenly, a guy out of nowhere who was wearing RED shirt and is not our classmate joined us to do the pledge. I mean, come on la. You go and join your group to do your own moral values la. Why so ke poh and go join other ppl's class???? WTH are u doing, spoiling our ALL-BLACK classmates??? Our pledge is none of your business OK!!!!!! And I found out that the guy was also the one that joined the curtin choir and even before i knew him, i can sense that im not gonna like him. Once when we were practicing choir, he said that he can sing better than the whole BASE singer, although he sings TENOR. What a weirdo!!!!!! I know he's not gonna read this post, cos he dont even know me. muahahaha... <- That is why i feel that im a horrible person. Sometimes alot of ppl call me kiasu and "hao sheng", but i really try my best to lessen the kiasu-ness..... then again, when i realize i had gone some part of my kiasu-ness, i know that my result in quizzes is not satisfying enough for me. What should i do??? Bring back my kiasu-ness and hao sheng-ness? Or just let it be and dont really care whats going on about your academics? Such a big dilemma for me...

NEW SEM, NEW PROBLEMS

I've been trying my best to not keep involving myself in any dramatic situation. Despite all the effort i do, instead those situations come to me. WTH????? i got my personal problems too ok. can i just stay away from things that is not involving me? i have been nice to everyone this semester. all the problems i have i never tell others (except is someone ask), and i never get my friends involved in my problems. so please let me off........ anyways, im so frustrated today when that freakin quiz marks came out, thank goodness i fight for extra marks or else im doom. SIGHS~